A Jelly Revelation
Ever heard of the saying:
I know you have because it's one of the oldest sayings in the book. But i don't think anyone knows that phrase better than the people who are, themselves, jealously inclined.
Unfortunately i am one of those poor souls and everytime i crave the attention of somebody and another person gets it, my blood starts to boil and kapow, jeoulousy sets in.
I know, i'm a sinner. Got an issue? Get a tissue......or so the phrase goes apparently....
Because i'm sure it breaks every rule there is in the bible, it probly breaks the 10 commandments, it's probly one of the seven deadly sins and overall it's just not good and downright unholy but that's part of my personality and who i am.
This last week i have experienced God's amazing power in overcoming my jealous attitudes and i've also experienced what it's like when i don't let God do his work in my life.
In fact, i'm so used to being a jelly cow (derogatory term for jealous person) that when God actually did help me in overcoming the situation, i was amazed at myself when i didn't react in a jelly kind of way and that realisation set me on the biggest high and made me kinda even buzz, i couldn't stop saying thanks to God for his amazing power, coz there's no way on earth i could've stopped myself from feeling a little bit of bitterness.
Today, i haven't been quite so fortunate and my reactions weren't quite so Godly (which isn't a surprise when God's not involved) and i realised what it is to be a lowly human in much need of a much greater God - in fact, i realise this every time it happens. When i don't rely on God for stuff like that i end up kicking myself or slapping my forehead and wishing i had of acted more like Jesus, thus feeling guilty and ashamed, satan most probly laughing at my stupidity (go to hell - oh wait, that's right, you're already there?!).
Also in the last week or so, i've realised that there aren't just one or two things that we need to rely on God for but everything. Most things I'm pretty good at handing over to God so i don't usually notice just how much we let God take care of but when i start relying on myself for things and heaps of things start to fall down and get messed up, that's when i realise that there is so much stuff that i don't even think twice about that i give to God. I cannot imagine what life without God is like - i don't understand or even comprehend how some people even cope without him, God is my everything.
God's already won the victory over evil and he prevails everytime but only if we hand him the problems that are useless to us if we try and hang on to them ourselves. We have to hand these things to him constantly, it's not gonna happen on it's own.
Mmmmmm.....it was such a small, weird, cool revelation that i had to blog it.
Tink xoxo
"Jealousy's a curse"
I know you have because it's one of the oldest sayings in the book. But i don't think anyone knows that phrase better than the people who are, themselves, jealously inclined.
Unfortunately i am one of those poor souls and everytime i crave the attention of somebody and another person gets it, my blood starts to boil and kapow, jeoulousy sets in.
I know, i'm a sinner. Got an issue? Get a tissue......or so the phrase goes apparently....
Because i'm sure it breaks every rule there is in the bible, it probly breaks the 10 commandments, it's probly one of the seven deadly sins and overall it's just not good and downright unholy but that's part of my personality and who i am.
This last week i have experienced God's amazing power in overcoming my jealous attitudes and i've also experienced what it's like when i don't let God do his work in my life.
In fact, i'm so used to being a jelly cow (derogatory term for jealous person) that when God actually did help me in overcoming the situation, i was amazed at myself when i didn't react in a jelly kind of way and that realisation set me on the biggest high and made me kinda even buzz, i couldn't stop saying thanks to God for his amazing power, coz there's no way on earth i could've stopped myself from feeling a little bit of bitterness.
Today, i haven't been quite so fortunate and my reactions weren't quite so Godly (which isn't a surprise when God's not involved) and i realised what it is to be a lowly human in much need of a much greater God - in fact, i realise this every time it happens. When i don't rely on God for stuff like that i end up kicking myself or slapping my forehead and wishing i had of acted more like Jesus, thus feeling guilty and ashamed, satan most probly laughing at my stupidity (go to hell - oh wait, that's right, you're already there?!).
Also in the last week or so, i've realised that there aren't just one or two things that we need to rely on God for but everything. Most things I'm pretty good at handing over to God so i don't usually notice just how much we let God take care of but when i start relying on myself for things and heaps of things start to fall down and get messed up, that's when i realise that there is so much stuff that i don't even think twice about that i give to God. I cannot imagine what life without God is like - i don't understand or even comprehend how some people even cope without him, God is my everything.
God's already won the victory over evil and he prevails everytime but only if we hand him the problems that are useless to us if we try and hang on to them ourselves. We have to hand these things to him constantly, it's not gonna happen on it's own.
Mmmmmm.....it was such a small, weird, cool revelation that i had to blog it.
Tink xoxo
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Tuesday, June 06, 2006
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