No Children

I've never EVER wanted children of my own and to a certain extent i still DON'T want my own children. Just the other day i was watching a lady take her toddler child into a petrol station in search of a toilet and thanked God i was not burdened with children. I can still honestly say i never want them.

However, I would like to get married and chances are, if that ever happens, my husband will unfortunately want to have kids. It's an issue I will need to discuss with him. I think though, when you love someone, you will do whatever it takes to make them happy, so some compromise will be in order i suppose. haha....i don't know what that even looks like....
The idea of being in love with someone and spending the rest of my life with them, and only them alone, excites me. i don't want any interferance with that. Kids will just seem to ruin all of that, hence the reason i've NEVER had the desire to have my own children. Not ever.
Sometimes i feel so horrible and selfish and especially guilty because of the countless women who can't have their own children. And who knows, I'm so old now that maybe i can't even have kids myself. But I feel awful because if it was possible, i'd gladly give them my reproductive system so they could be happy. But even that in itself is such a miserable thing to say.

Annnnyway.....

Over the past week or so I've been thinking about what I would call my kids if i had them.

Now, i know this contradicts everything i have just said but on the off chance that it accidentally happened or that i loved my man THAT MUCH that i gave in (hahahaha no chance ha!), it has been fun just letting my mind wander.

The unfortunate part about being single so late in the normality of most people's lives, is that everyone is taking the names I've put so much time in thinking of. For instance, my cousin just recently had a baby and called her Charlotte. It's unfortunate because i love that name (awesome choice Alice!) but now i've had to cross it off my list. Although, I've made an exception to that which I will explain.
So the purpose of this email is to warn everyone (not give them ideas!!!!!) that I have dibs on the following names and that you, UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCE, are NOT allowed to call your child these names....
So for girls these are my reserved names....DO NOT USE....
*Clio
*Haddie/Hadie (pronounced had-ee)
*Matilda (Tilly)

And for boys I'm not so good at names. I hate pretty much every boys name out there....but these are the ones I've settled on.

*Charlie
*Micah

Now, like i said, my cousin already took the name Charlotte. But i am HOPING that if i ever had a boy, I could get away with Charlie. I would need to check. hahaha.....OH the name etiquette of families.....

Anyways, like i already said, i pray to God children are NEVER on my agenda, unless they're adopted or fostered, i would love to do that, but if per chance God has other ideas, those are the names you, or anyone else for that matter, are not allowed to use!

=]

Holiday Damage

Upon reading some other peoples blogs, i realised that my blog is neither inspiring or helpful. But that's not what i intend by writing these. This, for me, is just a place where i can put in writing what i am experiencing, in what weeks of this weight loss journey and because i haven't blogged for awhile, I am about to do so.

For 6 weeks now, i have been losing weight consistently. I'll admit, they haven't been huge losses, but I'm pretty sure WW is happy about that and as they say, a loss is a loss no matter how huge or how small.

This week however may just break that weight loss streak.

Over Christmas, i actually LOST weight. I was extremely amazed but then in honesty, i was being super cautious and particularly because at that time, i had only just started WW.

This holiday season has not been as relentless and on Sunday when i step on those scales, i will learn just what damage has been done.

I have taken this week off work for a week of much needed holidays and as with the Christmas holidays, I've been reminded how deadly it is to sit at home and be blissfully bored. I have loved getting up late and have loved doing nothing etc but there has been toooo much chocolate laying around to do me any good.

I also went camping over the Easter weekend and so my meal planning was not awesome due to being on a camping menu ie. marshmallows, noodles etc.

So i resolved to take the week off of dieting, which in the long run, will not benefit me whatsoever, particularly when the time comes for maintenance.

But like i said, being at home instead of at work has thrown all my meals and eating habits out of whack and it's definitely something i will need to eventually start working on. The problem lies with the lack of holidays that i ever seem to have and thus not having the chance to deal with them properly. So i suppose one of my goals should be to start tackling holiday eating habits. I'm just so grateful one of the good things about work is being able to stick to a meal plan etc.

So far i have lost 20.7kgs but we will just have to wait til Sunday to see what damage has been done.

ON a hopeful note, i donated blood today and the scales said i was 100grams lighter. So here's hoping!!!