Slow Progress is GOOD Progress

Well, I am still slowly chipping away at all this fat mass but today, being my weigh-in day, I feel inspired. This is the second week I have lost weight now and i lost a lot more than i thought i was going to lose. Which makes me feel great!
This week's highlight of weight loss:

I made it to the gym 3 times which is great and am hoping to maintain that during this next coming week. Also, a PT came up to me during my session yesterday and helped me out with my gym training. One of his most helpful tips he gave me was that i should workout at no greater than a 65% heartrate, because after this, my body starts to use other things for fuel instead of fat. So it's more beneficial for me to work smarter and not harder, as I have been working at an 80% heartrate. So i can really slow it down, which is great. I guess I won't be burning as many calories though. I'm increasing the distance i walk now!
This week's lows of weight loss:

I was actually sceptical of how much weight i'd lose this week as my diet is really starting to look miserable. I really want to get back to how motivated and inspired i was at the beginning because that was when i was measuring out and calculating all the contents of what was in the food very carefully and planning my meals accordingly. At the moment i'm in a bad habit of guessing. Which can be good because i'm trying to train my head to lose weight without this program but at the same time, it's extremely detrimental to what i'm trying to achieve here.
To date:

This week i lost 1kg. (2.2lbs)

That is a total weight loss thusfar of 28.2kgs. (62.1lbs)
That's all she wrote!

Slow Progress

The last 3 weeks of weight loss have been super slow! In the first week i GAINED weight, the second week i only lost what i'd gained and today i have only lost 800g's! Soo....
This week's highlight of weight loss:

I ate relatively well. Diet was pretty awesome. I have also noticed my legs becoming smaller. Still waiting to see belly fat, muffin top fat and lunch lady arms reduce in size.

This week's lows of weight loss:

I only made it to the gym twice. I'm becoming very lazy with my gym attendance. Partly because it is so cold now but also i have just been so tired!
To date:

This week i lost 800g's (1.7lbs).

That is a total weight loss thusfar of 27.2kgs (59.9lbs).
That's all she wrote!

Being Still

I've had my knickers in a knot for a couple of weeks now.  Just can't seem to feel comfortable in my job.  Not really getting along with some of the people i work with and really wondering how to combat that.

I'm almost certain i don't want to be there anymore and yet it's not a job i seem to ever be able to get out of.


Getting out of what i'm doing is consuming me so much lately that my thoughts even trailed off during the sermon last night at church and i started wondering if what i was doing even really matters, that maybe i should be more ministry focused.

But then who am i kidding, i can't even stand to work with some of my colleagues!! ha! i'm only human i suppose.....(ha!  what a copout!!!)

Anyways....

So i was in the shower on Saturday, which is where i do most of my deepest thinking, and got to thinking about how sometimes, when we THINK we're being still, there's still a hundred things going on for us, even our thoughts are racing a hundred miles a minute!  So what does it mean just to be still?

Then on Sunday night, Pastor Luke talked about being still.....and i was like, 'ha!...ok...'

Then this morning at prayers our Department Head talked about being still in the workplace (psshhht!) and i gots to thinking that maybe being still is something i'm struggling with in my life.  Perhaps this was the small voice of God, 'the gentle whisper' that Elijah heard in 1 Kings 19.

Just now I came home and opened Pinterest.  My newest favourite, mind-numbing activity!  People 'pin' different images onto 'boards' that they've categorised.  It's like playing pretend for adults hahaha (although there ARE some great recipes and instructionals on there too!)

But anyways, someone posted this:

 So I'm pretty sure I'm recognising God in all of this, but just not completely understanding it all.  I'm not an awesome Christian.  In fact, i'm a doubting thomas most of the time.  It's highly unlikely that God is impressed by anything i do or say and yet i still cling to this hope that he loves me and pursues me.  Some days i get this image that i'm hanging onto God whilst i'm hanging from a cliff.  But that's not what this blog is about, that's a completely seperate blog all together.

I just know, in some capacity, i need just to be still......whatever that looks like.